Its been a week since coming home and its been the longest I have been home since I started college. The week was full of meeting with friends and spending time with brains parents. The day of the visitation came and I can honestly say it was one of the toughest things I have been too. Just seeing his parents who before were the happiest and most energetic people torn down really opened my eyes about life in general. Just a couple of months before we had to bury a couple of my friends and this just seemed different for everyone. I think it everyone was tired of coming back to Burnet for funerals. The next day at his funeral wasn't any better, actually it was much worse. I just wanted to get back to Dallas and consume myself in my work so I could get my mind of everything and that is exactly what I did. The day after the funeral I went back to Dallas and my editors wanted me to take it easy with work but that was the last thing I needed at the time. The lost of Brian made me have a whole new perspective on everything because I had to shoot the biggest story since I have been in Dallas and when I got there and met the CEO my camera quit working and the day was lost. Normally this would have pissed me off but after I tried everything I could to fix my gear it was out of my control. The man I met with was very understanding and we scheduled it the next day. I ended up renting a camera while mine was getting worked on and it turned out okay. Once the week ended I spent some time by myself and it was honestly excruciating so I just started more work because I didn't know what to do with myself.